Monday, June 30, 2008

Divine Intervention

There has been times in life, we blamed all adversaries to injustice of life
We blamed our ill fortunes, we blamed our karma, and anything else, without repercussion
Its easier than to admitting our lack of effort, our limited academic excellence, self confidence
We are just been human after all.

There are those who spent monies on checking their past life, reading astrological reports
To catch a glimpse of our previous life, and hoping to find a guide to present
If we have done wrong, now is time to make amends, and make peace with .. someone
We are just been human after all still.

When all logical explanations done and still no answers found
We might find some consolation in the divine intervention
Whether we whole heartedly believe in its predictions
Whether we shrugged off the truth or the false
At the end, we are all just looking for ourselves in everything around us.

We want to believe there is a purpose for our existence on earth
There is a reason that we are alive, yet struggling to make ends meet
Are we believing in the sequence of consequences
Are we been hard on ourselves, and giving ourselves false hopes
Are we searching at the right place but at the wrong time
Or at the right time, at the wrong placement.

Ambiguousity haunts us the deepest when things go wrong and thoughts went astray
Nightmares follow, with series of events that subconsciously play in our minds at night
There seems to be no peace, even when we shut eyes.

We are trying extremely hard to diagnose the divine intervention
We are fervently praying for answers and guidance from the supreme forces
But unfortunately, we never took the time to look around us for clues
We are paid to gain experience, which we can learn so much
We are given a free hand, to create both happiness and sadness
We have friends, whom we can count on for some assistance
I think we are just human after all, taking things for granted.

Just take five .. that is as short as it takes to entwine with divine intervention.




Thursday, June 19, 2008

Life at a Glance

This morning, a friend sorta browse through my palm, and gave me some insights:-

1 - will have 2 lovers in my life
I am trying to figure out, who- whether they came and left, or they are still waiting for me (fat chance)
2 - one of them lovers, I will love for eternity
Well, I believe in eternity, so that is obvious.
3 - there is split personalities
Ooops this sounds pretty dangerous. Or is it not normal, we have both the dark and angelic side to us? I have all my life tried to be the best person for everyone else, but it is situation/circumstances that made the worst of us. This I do believe. But life is still far ahead (I think)
4 - there is a suicidal tendency
With so much going on in life, it is difficult to to contemplate with death (that is suicidal).
Since the price of flour, rice gone up; and then fuel price shot up the roof. Why not the suicidal rate?

With this insight, I will definitely continue to do what I have been doing:-
1 - LIve life to the fullest, as if tomorrow will never come.
2 - Do good, and not to resolve to evil.
3 - Love with all my heart and soul, and love with utmost trust and loyalty.
4 - Have no regrets in life.

Al viva Lifo.


Tuesday, June 17, 2008

HOW 2Bcome friends with EX

H............ HOly ShiT !
O............ OH My Gosh !

W
............ What Da Fuck !

Mind the language, but it just aint easy
I am really very optimistic that we can always be friends with our ex-es
Somehow for some forsaken reasons
It feels like treasons of the worst liaisons
When the right is wrong, and the wrong is right
All you ever still do, is argue and fight
Then when it is all calm and peaceful
It is just the tranquility before the storm blow.

How 2Bcome friends with EX
It is really Friendship put to the extreme test.

All my best wishes.




Giving up and giving in

Its so difficult to find the balance of caring and not caring anymore
It is so easily to be taken for granted, but that is all right after all
I have just learnt to give everything I have
Never ever expect anything in return
Though people think that is ABSOLUTELY IMPOSSIBLE
Its a mission impossible, but I am so close to 98% achievement
2% of emotional glitches and heart fatalities
But I am a living proof that it can be done, after all the turbulence in life.

It is hard to apprehend my motives
People rely on instincts to understand what I am feeling inside
Don't feel a reason to express them all out to the world
What is there to gain, and in the end with all the misunderstanding
Then I have to go about clarifying and explaining
Trying to justify every actions, and every reasons I am giving
It is the same over thing, over and over, again and again
I am just so misunderstood, the world will not understand.

I am just trying to be an attribute to the world that I still trust and believe
I am just trying to be around, to give some kind of relief
I am absolutely happy that everyone is starting to find their foothold in happiness
While I am starting my transition of giving up and giving in.


Saturday, June 14, 2008

Realism of Words

I have long realized that my words have carried a certain weight
There is certainty and truth in what I have said
And it need not even be a promise
Needless be sworn in the name of Almighty.

Once words are spoken, it is difficult to be taken back
If done so, thus, lack of integrity and substance
Often it need not be a curse, for it to come true
For what is heart felt, it will come through.

Its not important, if you do not remember what has been revealed
But if you do know, how much I would have care and know how I feel
Then you will know that I hold onto my words, like a promise not said
And like precious life, till death do they part
Least, I am not given the chance to fulfill them as accordingly
It would have been rare, for they will be done, in a very timely manner.

As careful as one should be of what they wish for
For they might just come true, sooner than before
When you think that its not going to happen
You may be surprised, your wish has been granted
But often, there has been mistakes made
Time of life will tell, but its has never been late
Just that we are too conscious to realize when things do happen
Too unconscious to know, your wishes come true right before your eyes.

Always behold, of things that surround
Of those lil things that can be found ...
WIshes are made of lil things that comes into your life
Lil things that made life so much more worth while.



Friday, June 13, 2008

The Joy of Discovery

When I smile, means I am happy
When I cry, means I am sad
When I frown, means I am in despair
When I scowl, means I am displease
When I yell, means I am angry .................
If you can only read me like pages of a book
Then cease all the joy of getting to know me, in depth.


Thursday, June 12, 2008

Scramble Thoughts for Tis Morning

I woke up feeling a pinch in my heart
I don't know why I would feel the pain
For I am not in love, and has no matter of heart to attend to - I took out the WELCOME mat.
And if I ever got a health issue, it is my disgestion system.

I woke up feeling lethargic
But I have gotten 8 hours of sleep, more than enough
I am not groggy or anything
A lil worry free, and hassle free - life never cease to bring some worry and hassle.

Somehow for the moment, i opened my eyes
The bright day greeted me
I know I have to live through the full day and night
I have made appointments and plans, I have to fulfill
Then I realized, its for everyone else, but me
Cause I made plans for the others.

I want to pack my bags at the end of the day
Switch off my mobile, and shut down the world
I want something to be done for me
Why the heck its so darn difficult to be selfish
To be indulgent
Why is it so hard not to be me.

I want to drive - and darn the stupid fuel price hike!
I want to camp out in the open air and watch the stars
I want to feel the rain on my face and get chill when the breeze brushes
I want to have mosquitoes bites and maybe a squirrel snuggle next to me
I want to go where nobody knows me - okay, a few friends won't hurt
Oh Shit - I need the bathroom !
I just need lots of papers - not to wipe my arse ... I am dying writer for crying out loud.
My brains are bursting with thoughts and my heart is feeling cramped ....................